Pieces

I didn’t  lost myself
but you abandoned me ... anyway 
You wanted to leave, and now I'm alone

But I'll get used ..
. 
With the  silence at home and the  only one dish on the table.
I didn’t  lost myself
The Sandalwood perfumes the ax that it hurt 
Goodbye, goodbye, goodbye my great love.
but, don't worry... because from everything that I had
I keep a picture of you

And the most beautiful nostalgia
I didn’t  lost myself
but you forgave me...
Poor heart mine - when yours were with me was so good.
I do not know why this happens 
. 
What was not to be  maybe . I'm gonna run away from this pain.
My love

if you want to go back – please , don't do that!

Because you broke me in a thousand pieces.

learning

Understanding a new language is as open a window that was locked for years and seeing all the world . 
I don't know if I will be able to stop just in learn English . I feel that I want more for my life . I really want open my vision for the  what the world want show me .
I'm 39 years old , but I'm feeling now my youth. 
Today  I  read 10 pages of a books English without a help from a dictionary. 
I know what my students feel when they learn reading ,now . 
Freedom 
power 
happiness
NB

Missing

When I was younger I've saw that everyone have a special place. Bullshit ! I thought about  that .  
How I was wrong ... I got that I have my special place , too
Macon . GA 
I'm going to buy a house there until the end of the year and probably I'll live there for the rest of my life .
I love  my country , too. However I felt there how if I had saw my first love for the first time . 
Love 
This is the right word .
I know where I will write my books and to feel  my life step by step . There , listening to  birds and watching squirrels playing among the trees.
I can't waiting  this moment .

NB

I can't

I want it 

I need it 

but 

I can't do it 

I can't do it 

Sometimes shadows get faces

and show us their feelings

pains 

fears 

tears 

I can't do it 

I can't do it 

I know what I feel 

I've saw this before 

already

A long time ago 

But the time isn't my friend now 

It doesn't let me forget ... my suffering

It doesn't let me go away 

No 

It is my worst enemy 

because it always picks my memories up and 

brings them to me 

I want it 

so much 

so much 

but I can't 

If am i a egoist ?

maybe

But, sometimes some drops of water  are greater than a ocean.

I can't say I love you in the space .

I want 

I need 

but 

I can't 

N.BROOKS

talking about Cloud Atlas

A long time ago ( isn't exactly a long time ago , but i always wanted to use this expression before. lol) I read a book called CLOUD ATLAS .  I was 33 years old and this book changed a lot of thing that I used to think about many ,many things . I read a book with love , passion , adventure , scfy  and policy .But the best thing about this book is that your writer David Mitchell  got mix everything and gave to us  a perfect star in paper.David Mitchel intends to combine flat-out adventure, a Nabokovian Iore of puzzles, a keen eye for character, and a taste for mind-bending philosophical and scientific speculation in the tradition of Umberto Eco and Philip K,Dick.The result is a fiction that reveals how disparate people connect, how their fates intertwine,and how their souls drift across time like clouds across the sky.

I can use just one word… A visionary

Today I felt the same pleasure when I watched the Movie . Everything inside me cried , laughed and  kept  watching , watching without moving my eyes .

I wanted have more english to say everything that I felt with this movie , but I guess that you need seeing by yourself and if possible tell me what  you  thought about it.

NB 

Sorry , My mistake

A lot of friends are writing to me about the texts using the facebook account . I appreciate it , but I would like that you all put their opinion by the blog, because it is a space to improve myself . I don't use any dictionary because it's a form that I found to save in my brain all new words that I learn everyday.
I guess that the best way to you learn writing is ... writing . hehehe!
I know that I have a lot of mistakes yet ( i've saw each one when Mrs. renata is helping me). 
But I would like to say how I'm loving do that . 
Thank you for every kind single word.
N.B

Being a nerd

Thirty years ago if you had said that you was a Nerd, probably someone would say " Are you insane ?" or something like that . Being a Nerd was a synonymous of idiot , ugly , nonsense among other bad things and bullshits. 
I unfortunately,  was born with serious problems in my vision and ,because that, I've  needed wear glasses . and , of course I wear until now . however this situation gave me immediately a NERD's I.D .
I love comic books , toys , books like  Lord of rings and all written by isaac asimov . Tv shows like Star Trek and movies like Star wars . (look at that the verb is in the present tense)Okay ...( you'll say) YOU are a Nerd . But when I was a little boy being a Nerd isn't a good thing for me ... in special moment when I wanted a Girlfriend . No dates to Nando for long , long , long time. LOL 
Another curious thing ... Thirty years ago didn't have nerd girls ...That was a legend among us (nerds).
OKAY . glasses , comics , books , star trek ... My romantic life wasn't so fine , but I've had the best friends that a guy could have. ( okay ... it's don't justify my terrible teenager) 
But all nerds from my age are adults now a days ( adult isn't the real definition , but ...wherever) and the most of us have a good job , a good life and believe or not , nice wives .
However, I am writing it because I have to say how I hate the 21th century . 
Today . being a Nerd is a charm and a lot of girls are nerds ( when I said girls I would like to say beautiful girls ) . We have a show on TV called The Big Bang Theory ( which I really like) that talk about Nerds . Star Trek and Star wars are a nice thing among  a lot of boys and girls .
I would like to ask for all nerds on the planet if someone of you has got a time machine just to bring up myself to now and give to me a nice moment in my pimply life.
Just that .
                                     N.Brooks

Thirty years ago if you said you were a Nerd, someone would probably say " Are you insane ?" or something like that . Being a Nerd was a synonym for idiot , ugly , nonsense among other bad things and bullshits. 
Unfortunately, I was born with serious problems in my vision and ,because of that, I need to wear glasses. If you wore glasses you were immediately labeled as a NERD.
I love comic books , toys , books like Lord of rings and all written by Isaac asimov. 
Tv shows like Star Trek and movies like Star wars . (Notice that the verb is in the present tense)Okay ...( you'd say) YOU are a Nerd . But when I was a little boy being a Nerd wasn't a good thing for me ... Especially when I wanted a Girlfriend . I had no dates for a long , long , long time. LOL 
Another curious thing ... Thirty years ago there were no nerd girls ...This was a legend among us (nerds).
OKAY . glasses , comics , books , star trek ... My romantic life wasn't so good , but I had the best friends that a guy could have. ( okay ... it's doesn't make up for my terrible teenager years) 
But all my nerds friends are adults now. ( adult isn't the real definition , but ...wherever) and the most of us have good jobs , a good life and believe or not , nice wives .
However, I am writing this because I have to say how I hate the 21th century . 
Today, being a Nerd is charming and a lot of girls are nerds ( when I said girls I would like to say beautiful girls ). There's a show on TV called The Big Bang Theory ( which I really like) that is about Nerds. A lot of boys and girls think that Star Trek and Star wars are nice.
I would like to ask all nerds on the planet that if any of you have a time machine, please help me to travel from my past to this present moment and give to me a nice moment in my simple life.
Just that.
                                                      reviewed by Renata

New year ... New hopes

New year .. New hopes ... new wishes
The best thing about start a new year always will be the opportunity of trying change our lives  for better . however ,to do it is more than just promises or wish. For us become something better and change our lives and the other lives the important is that we need get it inside us the courage and force .
I am a guy that get writing one hudred pages per day in my language but writing these lines now are so hard for me , but I know , also , that I could not get it a couple of months ago .
I remember my promise last year and I am pretty happy with my progress . I know that my goal is far yet , but  I know that I ned walk a step by time ,too.
you , my reader, maybe you are a american or another kind of  English native. Do you use your words? Do you know the power that you have ?
Use it ... Change it
I want , so much , understanding the what your books , and movies and poets want to say. 
I don't know how long I will need , but I know just it .... I'm going get it . 
Alone ? maybe 
With your help ? Probably 
But the most important is ... I really want  it .
Happy new year eve my dear friends .

                                         N.Brooks
once again I would like to say thank you for all help that coming from Renata. She is my lovely teacher and amazing friend 

The best thing about starting a new year it’s the opportunity to try changing our lives for better. 
However,to do this you need more than just promises or wishes. 
To become something better and change our and others lives, the important thing that we need is to find inside us the courage and force .
I am a guy who is able to write one hundred pages a day in my native language but writing these lines now are so hard for me. I also know that I could not have done it a couple of months ago.
I remember my promise last year and I am pretty happy with my progress. I know that my goal is still far, but I know that I need to walk one step at a time.
You , my reader, maybe you are an american or another kind of English native. Do you use your words? Do you know the power that you have ?
Use it ... Change it!
I want so much to understand what your books, movies and poets want to say. 
I don't know how long I will need, but I just know this .... I'm going to succeed. 
Alone ? maybe. 
With your help ? Probably 
But the most important is ... I really want it .
Happy new year my dear friends!

(Renata)